It’s amazing how so few words can make such an impact.
I have been in therapy. I’ve taken assertiveness training and cognitive behavioural training. I’ve been involved in 12-step recovery for years. I’ve been involved in various faiths and had a fairly good spiritual life.
Every single thing tells me:
- what other people think of me is none of my business
- don’t allow other people’s words to effect you
- consider the source
- be humble / compassionate to the other person and where they are
- take it with a grain of salt
- what does it really matter?
And most of all:
Let it go.
But then I need to also consider *my* side of things.
I’m in a lot of pain right. Emotional, physical and spiritual.
Emotionally I’m a wreck. I’ve been dealing with depression all my life and sometimes have periods where I have remission. But last August it reared once again, robbing me of so many things in life, not the least of which was a brand new budding career.
Physically I have a number of chronic issues that also have remissions – but at the moment a few of them are flaring. Not to mention a couple of brand new medical issues that showed up this week.
Spiritually I am coasting. Because of the emotional and physical issues in my life, I have been mostly housebound and my spirituality isn’t being boosted by community, which I feel is necessary.
So yes, a simple hurtful question can take me down right now. Deep down.